So I thought I would talk a little bit about my Daddy, and what he means...what having a Daddy means. It's not the same for everyone. We're all unique. All opinions expressed are mine alone, your mileage may vary. This is our flavor, our particular exquisite shade of gray.
You've seen me say that Daddy and I are non-ageplay. I have a feeling that for a lot of people, they just assume that when you are in a D/lg relationship it is all about ageplay/incest play. For some it is. For some the taboo is the turn on. Not me...I was repeatedly sexually abused from about the age of 5 to 13. I have no desire to revisit those times.
I don't condemn anyone who enjoys ageplay. I don't condemn anyone. There are plenty of people that are ready and willing to condemn me for many things...I submit, I allow someone to dominate me, I allow someone to hit me. I understand that in this world we are all served by different things. What serves me might not serve you, what serves you might not serve me.... shades of gray.
always said for once, just once, I want to be precious to someone. I want to be the one who brings the sun. I want to be able to see things with unvarnished eyes and share them with someone who takes joy in the seeing. I believe in magic, you see. I see wonder in the world. Sunshine, rainbows, the wind sloughing through the trees, thunder, lightening, the roar of the ocean, seagulls circling catching what you toss midair, sparrows sitting on your hand, dragonflies landing on your hand, butterflies lighting on your shoulder, fireflies lighting the night, Christmas lights - magic, not mundane.
That's what Daddy is. Daddy is the one who listens, who shares the magic, who reflects it back. I can be exactly who I am with Daddy. I can experience unbridled joy, and he laughs with me. I can cry, and he dries my tears, holds me till it doesn't hurt anymore. I can have a fit (yes I can!) and calmly and gently (relatively speaking) be shown a better way to express myself. He protects me from all the bad things - sometimes from myself, helps me with the hard things, always supports me, always keeps me from falling too far.
Daddy is guide, nurturer, comfort, teacher, best friend, cheerleader. Daddy is the best thing that has ever happened to this girl. Sometimes I am afraid that I dreamt him, he is that good, and that perfect for me, and that I will wake and find that he was all in my mind. Maybe my friend, MonstrsNightmare can weigh in, but I think Daddy is about level of trust. Daddy is trustworthy, he is the one who will never let me down.
I'm not always 6-years-old. But when I am, I can be, and be seen as endearing, well-loved, cute, funny. I can bring him joy. My God, that is the most awesome, amazing thing in the world! And for the first time in my life, I am precious.